A Letter to 16 Year-Old Me

*very much inspired to do this entry after reading Jolene's and also Aud's entries.

Dear 16 year-old me,

I guess it has never downed you that you'd be right where you are now, 10 years later.

PMR has just passed and you are having the finest honeymoon year without having to worry about SPM or even what future holds for you. Life is just too great, ain't it? Ah, PMR's result will be great for you, so, you don't need to worry about it. Daddy dearest even will get you a new mobile as a present for your good result, a Nokia 3310.


Comparing to what they have now, iPhone, HTC, Samsung and others, I'm sure you are already satisfied with a Nokia 3310. But guess what? Daddy dearest is gonna buy you a Nokia N82 somewhere 7 years later after you've graduated from UTAR.

Oh, did I mention UTAR? Yes, I did, you'd be going to UTAR and meet a bunch of GREAT friends!!!

You are a happily overweight teenage girl that has great friends and company, thus, the thought of losing weight has never come across your mind.

Little did you know that in 2 years to come, in 2003 and 2004, from overweight, you become obese and that was the starting point of your miserable life where people around you including your relatives make fun of you, being fat and also friends jeered at you for your weight problem.

Spending 2 terrible years keeping everything certainly does not help much but as another year gone by, you will meet a guy who sweeps you off your feet and you'll be carrying a torch for him for the next 5 years, Raph. Alas, he doesn't feel the same way as you do and soon, problems will come pouring in. Your friendship ends in later years because he will leave you stranded at KTM station close to midnight, misunderstands you and chooses not to trust you over lies. You will spend the next 2 months, crying yourself to sleep every night, wondering what you've done in the past that you deserve the way he treats you.

In between those 5 years, you will bump into the world's most notorious player, Brandon and guess what, you guys will somehow be attached but not officially since Brandon is in a relationship with a girl, who happens to be your friend. Well, Brandon will be the guy who shares your first kiss and hug with you.

Unexpected, but true. Okay, I've to admit, I was such a bitch but just read on...

After a thorough consideration and all, finally, you'll get over Brandon with the thought Raph is your everything. Then again, well... sad to tell you, you're wrong. He will never be anyone special this lifetime, yes, no.

You are really strong because you finally decides to ditch the thought of finding Mr. Right and spend a good 2 years trying to lose weight after that because you trust physical appearance is everything in this year. Hence, weighing at a shocking 91kg certainly doesn't get you anywhere. With so much hard work and moo-lah, finally, you shed 20kg in 2 years.

I know, I know, you'll NEVER even imagine how it feels to be so much lighter and looks so much better than your fat past!

Finally, after so much ups and downs in life, a semester before graduating, you will meet the world's WORST jerk and son-of-a-bitch. You will come to abhor him and wish that he'd be run over by a train and never reincarnate because that bastard actually has the nerve to ask you for moo-lah and also sex, quite forgetting you are brought up in a very strict Catholic and conservative family. Don't worry just yet, kiddo, you'll ditch this moron in 1.5 months because you just cannot stand his constant request for material and sexual needs. Oh, not forgetting, you are not so stupid to have given in to his beastly desires, so, you're not losing anything.

Hence, you will give up on finding love until a year later, when you finally will join UM, yes, UM, your dream university, to do your Masters.

OMG... I can't believe I've said it - kiddo, you'll be doing Masters in UM!!!

Life will be hectic but you are really, really and unbelievably strong to the point that friends address you as 'the iron lady.' You'll be doing 4 part time jobs while studying full-time in UM, hence, you are the iron lady of the millennium! After earning enough to travel, you went to Bangkok for your first ever overseas trip with Sherene and her sister!


You certainly do have the best travel time of your life with the world's best roomie, Sherene! You will be doing your first ever hair extension and also manicure in Bangkok with the sisters!

Life is meant to be enjoyed, you know? Hahahaha... Yes, you certainly did have the finest Masters years ever!

You will even join Starbucks, your favourite coffee company and work as a barista there. Those moments will forever be in memory because you will be pursued by an uncle who happens to be one of the VIPs working in Ambank. Then, there is another lawyer who resides in Australia will be approaching you. Nevertheless, you are not interested in them.

Other than that, remember that I've told you that you will take up 4 different jobs to support yourself? One of them is lecturing in a college, in which, when you first start out, you find yourself hating the job so much but after a year or so, you fall in love with the job and hoping you would be able to lecture in colleges or universities but somehow or rather, the administrative staff in that college sucks that in the end, you will resign after 1.5 years.

Hence, since you will be occupied with so many things in life, you somehow managed to lose another 10kg with so much stresses lying right ahead of you. It's not a bad thing considering you've been thinking to lose weight since you are a teenager.

The thought of bumping into Mr. Right never will cross your mind after 2007 until you meet this guy on 12th March 2011, in which, somehow, I'm not sure what is happening, you kinda fall in love with Euvern. Yes, falling in love after 4 years of being a single. Throughout the time you've come to know this guy, you'll realize he's kinda different from the other jerks. Unfortunately, your prediction will be wrong because he breaks your heart too.

Stupid sister will try to warn you not to fall in love too soon but alas, you and your hot and hard headedness never listens to her as usual, thus, sad but true, Euvern breaks your heart in the end. As much as you will then, hope that you guys did not start out even as a friend, still, your 26 year-old me can't do anything to stop fate and destiny.

That is part and puzzle of life, I guess. Luckily you are still as strong as you are before. You are able to pull through and realize life is better even without his presence because he has made you realize there's no perfect love in this world. From then on, you'll believe life is all about yourself and not about relationship for you. So, after that point of time, you'll stop trusting your once ago, known as fairy-tale love.

It isn't so bad, kiddo. Life is still great without any of the guys because you don't really need them. As much as I do know you are scared of growing old alone but if life is all about bumping into Mr. Wrongs that keep on breaking your fragile heart, then, growing old and dying alone aren't such a big deal after all.

Hence, the 26 year-old you right now, is working really hard to try to finish her thesis so that she can graduate by December 2011, thus leaving this land of heartbreaks and stresses forever. No, you won't have the intention to come back here again if you have the chance to leave. So, you are now, even taking up a job so that you will not spend time thinking of those jerks who has broke your heart besides earning a little extra moo-lah to support yourself.

Dearest 16 year-old me, if the 26 year-old me has the chance to turn back the time, I would want the time to stop right on 11th March 2011 because 12th March 2011 will be the time where your life takes a big turn and your perceptions towards a lot of stuffs will change.

You will then, start to wonder what did you do wrong to deserve all these guys coming into your life. You will blame God for letting these insignificant guys into your life and that why would He wants to break your heart over and over because all these guys treat you the same way - perhaps you are just insignificant in their lives too since there are girls who are far prettier, sexier, curvier, smarter and also more understanding than you are.

Don't blame yourself, kiddo. I know you never ask to be born this way but yes, the only trait in you that makes other awe is that you REALLY are a very strong person!

Kiddo, do work harder! We will meet again 10 years later when you're 26 while I am 36 then.

Good luck!

Much Love,

The 26 year-old me.

What become of a broken heart?

Sometimes, I find myself standing in the middle of a crossroad, deciding which route I should be taking. One of the routes happens to be the typical route that everyone takes and life is pretty predictable while the other route promises all kinda crazily promising future but in order to reach for your dreams, there are certain things you'd need to give up.

So, there I am, wondering if I should opt for a life that was pre-planned or doing something extraordinary.

More than often, I'm torn in between what is the truth and false are when deciding on what to do. I have to admit, sometimes, I am pretty indecisive and due to that, a lot of misunderstands come about. As a result, I disappoint people around me when I am trying to be myself.

I do realize there are times when I try to be honest, there are people who can't accept that I'm being too straight-forward in telling them how I feel towards certain things.

So, what is the nonsense about honesty or being myself when others don't seem to be able to accept the person who is standing right in front of them?

This especially applies when you've finally gathered enough courage to let the other person know how much you care about him or her but somehow or rather, he or she starts to avoid you after knowing the truth. Does it mean all these times, you are pretending to care about me even if you did tell me how much you care about me before?

It does strike me how much I am affected on this very day, 17th of May, when today is your birthday. I've been feeling really bad throughout the day and wishing all these never happened. I wish I could turn back the time to the very moment when we have not known each other.

Perhaps, if our paths did not intervene, all the heartbreaks would never happen. I could still be the carefree and happy me while you can still be your happy-go-lucky accountant. Perhaps if we did not come across each other, our lives would be better.

It really does hurt so much having to lose someone whom you thought he or she would care as what he or she promised but somehow or rather, it ended up all those they've promised you are just empty promises that were meant to keep you happy.

What are words when you don't mean them when you've said them?

I've always thought you are somehow different from all the jerks that I've met before because you've given me courage to live on everyday with smiles from the moment I've known you.

Those words still linger within me now, waiting to be freed because, I don't think I'll be needing any of those promises that you've never meant to keep. Perhaps, those promises are meant for another girl who has forever been there for you to keep you strong but I am not that person.

Do you realize how much I wish you could at least be honest with me regarding how you've felt but I guess I will never know the answer this lifetime. Even though I do know truth hurts but I'd rather you choose to be honest with me.


Do you know how much I anticipated for your replies every other day and how I wished you were the person I see every morning when I wake up?

You've promised you'd stay but in the end, you left.

You've promised you'd never be far away but in the end, you walked further away.

You've promised you'd always be there if I need you to but in the end, you weren't there when I really need you to.

You've promised a thousand promises but in the end, all those promises never came true.

You left me with nothing but a broken heart and a failed friendship.

Walking away isn't the easiest thing but since you and I were not meant to be, there is no point to drag on. It pains me even though I know you don't feel a thing. If you do feel something, perhaps, you should have approached me and talked to me about it but you did not.

You've chosen to walked out of my life the second time and this time around, keeping me OFF forever.

Where is the honesty that you've told me about?

Where is the non-judgmental trait that you've told me about?

Where is the 'I-am-not-gonna-hide' personality you've told me about?

You left me with nothing but a broken and disappointed heart, knowing that I've chosen to trust you when in reality, I should not.


Maybe it is my fault - I shouldn't have entered your life, I shouldn't have contacted you, I shouldn't have been expecting more than what you were able to give, I shouldn't have felt anything back then...

I was too naive and perhaps, stupid and idiotic as well.

Now that I've gotten my heart broken and once again, my faith towards L-O-V-E was ruined, I will just walk away silently. Sometimes, silence is gold and ignorance is bliss. Perhaps, that could be the reason why you've chosen to ignore instead of facing the reality which could hurt both of us.


So, this will be the very last last entry in which I will ever mention about you, Vern. This will also be the last ever entry that I will rant about how much you've meant to me and how scared I was at the thought of losing you and eventually, I've lost you. This will also be the first and last birthday wish from me to you.


Happy birthday, Vern and may your wishes come true. Stay happy, cheerful and healthy. I'm sure all the years ahead of you will be blessed with happiness and blissfulness.

Perhaps when one of these days when you've bumped into Miss Right, treat her right, appreciate her and stay honest with her. Please do not ignore her if anything crops up. I'm sure she'll know how to appreciate you more than I did.

With this... it means goodbye...


Goodbye to the existing friendship we've built, goodbye to the the trust we've given each other, goodbye to all the memories we've shared and goodbye to every single thing we've known about each other.

Once again, happy birthday, dearest Vern, good luck in your undertakings and finding Miss Right.

I'm sure you'll be having a blast!

Gosh... I am tearing while doing this entry... Well... sometimes, we just have to give and take even in friendships.


Hence, for the friendship between Vern and I, it ended - although it isn't my will but I do realize something - sometimes I just have to be my own hero in my life.

Yesterday, today and tomorrow

If you don't know, my life has pretty much turned upside down because it crashed on me two weeks ago. Since then, I've been trying to divert my attention away from all those awful miseries. I took up a job just recently because I really, really need to just forget about him. I may be upset about what happened but whether I like it or not, that was the past and I can't change it no matter what.

So, that was yesterday.

Hence, today, I'm going to make things better for myself. I'm going to spend time to do things I love so that life doesn't revolve around him only. Life is too beautiful and precious to be wasted on a guy who doesn't appreciate or see what you've done for him. Since he's decided to let go, I will be letting go as well. It's not my lost that I've let go because I know I'm worth more than that. This is today and yes, things WILL be better!

There's no need for me to dwell or reminisce the past because I will never know what he's told me is the truth or not unless I approach him but, is there a need for me to do so?

NO!

It's not really important after all.

Sometimes, silence is the best medicine.

Although I don't know what tomorrow holds, I will make the best of today for a better tomorrow. Yes, that means, more time spent on work, work, work and work!

In a nutshell, I'm still going to pray that he'll find his Miss Right and that he will not be repeating the same mistake both of us have gone through as well as everything goes well in his job and undertakings. Meanwhile, for myself, life will be busy from now on - there's so much to do, so little time!

Wish us luck, people!

也许时间是一种解药

It's never easy to walk away from the person you care the most. I've promised myself that I will try my hardest to overcome the fear of losing you so that I will be able to walk away silently.

For things that are never bound to happen, there will never be reasons that they never will happen too.

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were yours to begin with.

I will be letting go, once and for all - thank you for being there when I needed you too and thank you for being part of my life even though the time we've shared was short.

其實妳不懂我的心

Perhaps you'd be a bit surprised how often, if you knew, a joke, a song, a memory will make me think of you. Then, I'll be smiling and laughing, reminding myself, "You've told me all those before."

When I passed by Paddington , it reminded me that you've told me that we'll be going there one of these days...

When I saw puppies around, it reminded me that you've told me stories about Max...

When I saw raspberries, it reminded me how I burnt my fingers trying to bake raspberry cheesecake to impress you...

When I was told of the stories of the frog prince, it reminded me of our tin kai stories...

When I was at KLCC, it reminded me of the best birthday present in my life, having you to be there for me...

Those are the times when I realize I really, really do miss you a lot more than words can say... Somehow, I can't tell you all that I'm feeling lately, hence, I cry myself to sleep at nights because tears are words the heart cannot express.

It honestly doesn't feel good having to keep everything to myself. I wish I could share it with you but somehow, I know that part of me doesn't want to burden because both of us might be really trying hard to let go something that has never bound to happen.

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I have tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I have cried.

Although it scares me that I have to get used to the life without you from now on, what else can I do? I fear of imagining me without you but still, life goes on and I have to learn to cope with a future without you in it.

As sad as I am, I cannot be selfish because I should be counting my blessings and one of the blessings that I'm most grateful for this lifetime is knowing you. I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you.

Walking away isn't easy the best decision but sometimes, it is the best choice but I promise, I'll not let it be a burden for you because you really deserve someone better.


Perhaps, you'll wonder, "If walking away is tough, why do you want to walk away?"

If both of us are feeling tormented, why do we need to stay on? I cannot bear seeing you unhappy. I cannot bear having to imagine you're going through bumps.

I guess we've reached the ending of the entry - if you're wondering... yes, I've fallen for him. Fallen for somebody who is never mine to begin with.

Even if I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I feel, still the ending will be the same. So, now, I will leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground because you know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.

I miss you...

I'm back from Langkawi finally and though it was a tiring trip, my heart never stopped missing somebody. If there was something that I did that completely made me stopped thinking about him for a while, the answer would be NONE.

He's been on my mind throughout the trip and how I wished he could be there with me, even if it was just to witness the sunset.


Sunset felt forever without him. At the moment I was sitting by the beach, watching the sun setting, I couldn't help myself but to wonder, "What are you doing right now? Are you busy with work? Do you miss me?"

I wished and wished I would be able to see him again really soon because I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about him all the times. It was just like everything I did, I could relate to him. I hoped I could fly back to KL at the moment I missed him so, so much.



The moment I got down the plane this morning, I wished he'd be the first person I was going to see but somehow or rather, it was impossible. How I wished I could just catch a glimpse of him at that time.

Even as of now, when I'm blogging about it, I wish he'd at least drop a line because I seriously miss him so, so much... What should I do?

Heartbeats

I've heard people said, "If two persons are missing each other, they could almost hear each others' heartbeats."


I might appear to be strong at times but deep down inside, I have my vulnerabilities. It's just sometimes, I need to pretend to be strong because I'm scared of so many things in life. In order to protect myself, I need to appear to be strong.


Pretending isn't easy. It is in fact, one of the toughest things to do, especially at the times when you really need someone to be there and you realize he is or she not there. Pretending that you don't even miss the other person every single minute is a lie when all that you want is to be in his or her embrace.

Every time when my heart beats, I feel it - the feeling of missing and wanting to see you.


Deep down inside, I really don't know what I should do to let you know that I'm actually feeling so.

In less that 12 hours, I'll be away from KL for a week and honestly, I still am feeling very heavy-hearted even though I did tell you that I'll be okay and it's just a week. How I wish I could see you at the moment I'm blogging about this - even a few minutes would be great if you could just be here...

Imagine me without you...

Sometimes, we can't deny but in life, things do happen for various reasons.

There are times when I don't really agree with what life is in for me but human beings can only plan but God is still the one who decides in the end.

True enough, I might be mad at all the bad things that come my way but still, just like any one of you out there, no matter how helpless, mad or angry you are towards everyone and everything, life still goes on.

Thus, I told myself, be it happy or sad, I will make myself happy because yes, life goes on no matter what. I bet if you are given options - to be sad or to be happy, I'm sure you'll go with to be happy, right?

Yes, an apple a day, keeps the doctor away, hence, a smile a day, keeps the wrinkles away! That's my philosophy of course, you don't really need to agree with me.

I guess God heard my prayers after all these times and He brought you back into my life at the time I thought everything was going to fall apart.



Thank you, Lord for answering my prayers.

At the same time, I'm feeling a little heavy-hearted. I'll be leaving for a short trip to Langkawi over a week and this time around, I wish I could cancel the trip because I know I'll be missing you so, so much.

Sighs... at the end, still, I know I need to get back to reality and I'll be leaving you behind for a week.

*heavy-hearted*

I wish we could spend more time together but I guess we'd have to pass for this week too since you'll be having a full schedule. No matter how heavy-hearted I am, I know we won't be seeing each other for two whole weeks until I return from Langkawi.

Two weeks might seem short for others but for me, it feels like eternity. Honestly, there are so many things playing about in my mind right now.

I'm scared inside out.

I'm scared over the two weeks we are apart, things may just change. I'm scared to be far away from you. I'm scared I'd need to go through the same phase if bad things ever happen again. I'm scared, really scared...

I've lost you once and I really can't imagine losing you again because I really cannot imagine me without you.

Happy birthday, Angel!

Hey, all!

Yes, just as the title would say it, "I'm a year older on this day, finally."

So, I guess, I'm a year wiser?

Hopefully. LOLX!

Let's see how did I spent my birthday in 2011.

Gosh, looks like I've been eating a lot since Wednesday because everyone celebrated my birthday earlier since, my big day is on Sunday, which is today and tomorrow, it'll be blue Monday where everyone will be feeling gloomy!

Went to Kuchai Lama for buffet steamboat with some good ol' friends!


Sorry for the terrible expressions and poses. We were sweating like mad due to the heat and all! Still, I think of all the girls were looking hawt, I know, I know! Damn perasan, right?

Thank you.

Then, future brother-in-law came all the way from JB and spent the following birthday celebration at Jogoya, Starhill...


I admit, I'm getting more and more useless with it comes to food. I stopped eating after the first half an hour and decided, "No, I'm beaten!"

Hence, I sat there for another 2 hours or so, watching the others gobbling down the food.

When I was going through the pictures a while ago, all of a sudden, I realized I've forgotten to do something yesterday!

I'm supposed to take pictures with someone when we went out together yesterday but I totally have forgotten all about it hence, sighs... sien, sien, sien... I should smack myself for not taking a picture with him!

Mr. Vern, if you're reading this, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you and thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this a birthday to remember! Thank you so, so, so much for spending the day with me and making it meaningful. I truly appreciate every little effort!

Gah, I really couldn't express my heartfelt gratitude to all your efforts - it's something beyond words could explain.

*teary eyes*

I need tissues, Mr. Vern!

So, thank you, thank you and thank you once again!

When I got home, my brother and the housemates had a surprise for me and yes, bestie and boyfriend bought me a birthday cake too!


Hahahaha... two birthday cakes for 2011 - more satisfied than ever!

So, next year, Imma gonna anticipate homemade birthday cake from someone. Hey, mister! If you're reading this, you've one year to learn to bake cheesecake for my birthday next year! Hahahaha... I'll be looking forward to it!

*claps hands*


Now you see my ugly naked face without foundation or anything on!

You're right, I'm in my pajamas. LOLX! Hey, that's what you wear when you're at home, right, right?

The following day, which is today...

I woke up early and went to Pavilion for a workshop conducted by Benefit Cosmetics and spent the entire morning at the counter, dolling myself up and after that, of course, followed by camwhoring session with bestie who came all the way from JB!


LOLX! Damn touched this time around. She traveled all the way from JB just to spend a few hours on 10th of April with me and rushed back to JB because work starts tomorrow. PX, I'm gonna cry already! You're truly my soulmate, my true love!

After the workshop, we went to Wong Kok for a short gathering over lunch and had my gigantic milk tea.


Hey, look! I was on the phone with Sharon when stupid sister took the picture above! I kinda like the picture! Angel's on the line, listen to who you're speaking to! Woot, woot!!!

A last picture with bestie!


Yeah, right before she left for JB and Imma gonna miss her... I don't know when I'll be seeing her again after this...

Anyway, happy birthday to me and thank you everyone, for the wishes, time and effort spent in making my big arsed birthday possible!

I am happy because old people like me deserve to be happy!

Ciao, have a great remaining of your weekend, people!

Falling into you...

Nah, it's not like Celine Dion's version of Falling into You and it's neither my own version because I don't compose songs or write poems. No, yours sincerely is not artistic or poetic enough to do all that, hence, Imma gonna ramble all I like.

Yeah, as usual, 2.19am, a time where I should be in bed despite the fact that I need to wake up at 6am later. So much for worries and stresses that I'm getting more and more wrinkles.

I was talking to Jo earlier regarding finding Mr. Right and guess what...

There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved. It is God's finger on man's shoulder.
~ Charles Morgan ~

Indeed, she's one of the luckiest girl ever, I told her - to have her precious other half to be with her when she needs him to and to have him hearing her rambles and stories when she wants him to and of course to love her as well!

Girl, if you're reading this, I'm really glad your Mr. Right is with you through thick or thin - I'm sure his presence is a blessing in disguise!

So, earlier before I chatted with Jo, I was talking to bestie about it as well since she was grumbling and complaining about everything you could possibly find in the world of love and marriage.

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."

Indeed, bestie told me, meeting her Mr. Right wasn't easy - it took her 20+ years to bump into her husband. She waited patiently and is glad that God sent him to her after waiting for so many years.

I asked her, "When do you know you've found the perfect man?"

Her answer was, "There will never be a perfect man because..."

Love isn't about finding the perfect person, it's about seeing an imperfect person, perfectly.
~ Sam Keen ~

Then, silently, I asked myself, "When do I know if he's the one I've been waiting for?"

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
~ Lao Tzu ~

Honestly, it's really tough, especially after I've met several bumps along the way and these bumps left me scarred for God-knows-how-long. I was scared to love again, I was scared of being approached and I was scared to even get to know friends of the opposite gender.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

It could be true that perhaps God does want me to meet a few wrong Mr. Wrongs so that I'll appreciate Mr. Right more. This is the only thought that has been lingering in my mind for a while now.

I used to tell my parents that, "Perhaps, God has forgotten to grant me a Mr. Right when He created me because apart from Mr. Right, I'm granted with everything any person could ask for."

Mum knocked my head and said, "You silly girl! God's creation is always wonderful and He will NEVER forget you because He remembers to create you!"

Perhaps, in the eyes of others, I'm independent and strong-willed that I don't really need somebody to be there for me but honestly, deep down inside, I'm just another typical girl - I long to be cared for, pampered and loved!

I would cross a thousand oceans just to hold you tight. I would climb a thousand mountains just to be with you.

I told bestie, "If God is to grant me a Mr. Right now, I don't mind even if I've to trade 10 or 20 years of my life to be with him."

Yes, if I'm given a chance to choose between breathing and loving the other person, I'd use my last breath to tell him that having him in my life is one of the best things that has ever happen to me!

Bestie nodded her head, "You'll meet him someday and when you do, I'm sure the love between the both of you will be deeper than the ocean and higher than the sky."

Hence, I shall keep a positive mind ahead and let's just say, this is a random rambling and what I'm thinking of after I've chatted with Jo.

Nothing too serious.

Have a wonderful week, people!

P.S. I'm still trying to get better, hence, please bear with me because sick people tend to get emotional easily. LOLX!