Dr. Wong and I

I hate to admit it but I've gotten my heart broken again just 2 weeks back. As much as I hoped things would work out between us but it didn't and it ended up the harsh way that I never expected it'd happen.

Remember the time when I've mentioned that there's a price to pay for dating a professional? I guess I am paying the price now - torments, pains and also heartbreaks.

Lemme resound my story and you be the judge.

I got to know Dr. Wong about 3 to 4 months back and at that point of time, I was going through some family issues because everything within the family was so messy to the point I wanted to give up but Dr. Wong was with me from day to night and night to day. He was the one giving me endless supports and advices.

Well, quite a nice guy, right?

Yeah, I guess that was one of the reasons why I fell for him in the first place and it didn't happen over night. Another reason why the feelings developed was because he told me, "No matter what, when or how, in my eyes, you're my Miss Perfect. You'll never be wrong and even if you are wrong, it'll be my fault. If you're late, I will wait, if you're crying, I'll wipe your tears, if you need a hug, I will be next to you. I will never break your heart like other jerks you've met."

How many girls out there will not fall for a guy like Dr. Wong?

When we first started out, I was a little skeptical because both of us wanted to keep things on low profile since we did not know how things would turn out for us but Dr. Wong assured me that he will work hard for this relationship to happen and I trusted him. Only some of my close friends knew him but that was the starting point of our first ever argument. He didn't like the fact that our friends knew about our relationship. This included our parents.

Being daddy's girl, the first person I told was dad and dad was really happy for me because I was asked to go for a match-making session earlier but I kept on declining but this time around, I had a reason to turn them down.

Dr. Wong was super mad at me but at the same time, he said, "I don't want you to go match-making but at the same time, can you just not tell your parents about us yet? Our relationship isn't really stable."

I had to agree with him but to the point of not letting my parents know, I thought it was a little weird. So, everything went alright because he gave in to me in the end. Awww... that was why I had fallen for him.

The second time when we quarreled was because of his time management. How can you expect your partner to keep on waiting for you and having you not turning up? I mean, hey... this is only courtship and you're not willing to show up?

Okay, I've to admit now, I only got to see Dr. Wong like once a week because according to him, a doctor is always busy and with him being the future specialist, his private time is limited. He could only make out a day out of a week for me.

I was okay with that because I thought to myself, "I'm gonna be an understanding girlfriend to him. It's not that he doesn't want come but he's busy with work."

Little did I know I was so wrong.

On the day as fate would have it, I was picking up my sister at Lot 10 when my instinct told me to just go for a walk. Earlier that day, Dr. Wong was SMS-ing me non-stop asking me what would I be doing, where would I be and not to stay outside too long. Well, I was happy at the thought my boyfriend cared about me. Just as I've sent him a SMS, "I'm going home now," as luck would have it, I bumped into him at Lot 10's entrance.

I couldn't believe my eyes. A moment ago, he was telling me he had just gotten home from doing oncall and was gonna sleep a bit before coming over to my place later that night and then, I saw him with my very eyes, alive, standing right in front of me and... HE WAS FREAKING HOLDING ANOTHER GIRL'S HAND AND HE WAS CARRYING HER HANDBAG FOR HER!

I wished I would have caught the wrong person but I knew I wasn't wrong when stupid sister told me it was him! He couldn't even utter a word in front of me when he saw me. Even when I called him, he was pretending that he was out with his friends and later that day, he told me, "She is my ex."

What the fuck is he trying to pull?

Am I a retard?

At that point of time, I finally came to realization why all these times, when I offered to send him lunch or dinner to HUKM, he turned me down. When he said he wanted to see me and I told him I'd go over to the hospital, he declined. When I asked if he was busy or not, for always, he would have something up. Whenever he came to my place, it'd be after 10pm.

I felt like a mistress all of a sudden.

If a relationship comes to this stage where you see your other half being with another person, what would you say?

His stupid explanation was easy, "She was my ex and my parents' favourite, so, they asked me to go back to her."

Great, right?

I remember, on our second date, it was coincidentally, I saw a lovey-dovey SMS on his Galaxy Ace and that was the starting point when I suspected him of dating another girl behind me. Instead of demanding for an explanation, I kept quiet because I wanted to respect him, who knows she might just be another girl who pursues him since Dr. Wong is physically fit and quite good-looking? So, I kept the thought to myself and said nothing about it.

Even when Albert was trying to warn me, "Angel, if one of these days, you bump into your boyfriend holding another girl's hand, what would you do?"

I even told Albert to respect us and that Dr. Wong would never treat me that way.

As of now, I am mending my broken heart. Yes, it might be my fault, it might be that I am the third party between him and that girl and yes, that girl could be in the same situation as me but who cares? I'm through a guy like him - cheater and liar!

I will just sit back and mend my broken heart no matter how long it takes.

You don't have to worry about me because I'm doing okay since, obviously, it wasn't my fault because I didn't go and date another guy plus, I really tried to be an understanding girlfriend but I failed. Nevertheless, that isn't an issue now because...

Life is too precious and beautiful to let go just because of a cheater and liar.

If I were to be given a choice if you'd want a boyfriend like that or stay single, I'd choose to stay single rather than being in a wrong relationship.

Sometimes, you just have to listen to the people and voices around you because you might not be right all the times.

Staying strong is one issue while believing is another.

The things with DOCTORS...

Note: This entry is totally irrelevant and if you don't feel like reading it or anything, you may skip to the previous entry or whatsoever.

When I was 7, I remember, my class teacher asked me, "What do you want to be when you grow up? What is your ambition?"

Back then, I was going in and out frequently from my uncle's clinic and I do remember up until today, how striking he looks whenever he is working, though my beloved uncle is 73 years old now and actively still working.

My answer to my class teacher was, "I want to be a doctor, just like my uncle!"

When I turned 16, after the did not-so-well in my Biology, finally, I came to a conclusion that doctor isn't something I can do because Biology certainly isn't my field of experty. Hence, after a while, I made up my mind that I wasn't cut out to be a doctor.

It has been long since I have thought of being a doctor now but for some reasons, I don't know why but my life revolves around doctors and nurses.

I was talking to this doctor friend a month back and I was super mad at his rude remarks of my physical appearance and stuffs.

After a while, I got to know some other other friends and finally... I've came up with a conclusion.

You may disagree with me if you are a doctor but this is based on what I've found out from my encounters and experiences with doctors.

1. Doctors' words are harsh.
   
   Believe it or not, when I was 15 or so, I was so sick that one side of my ear was like completely deaf. So, I met a doctor at the government hospital who so happened to be one of my mum's colleague and he told me, "Girl, if you don't lose weight, you'll die young!" I completely hated going to the doctors' after that.
   
   Another incident was when I talked to this doctor friend where I did not mention anything to him at all and he ended up pushing me off my limits and also degraded me plus killing my self-confidence. That shouldn't be the way to talk to your friends! That is called RUDE!
   
   
2. Doctors always play hard-to-get.
   
   I don't intend to bitch about doctors because I totally adore them, especially when it comes to long hours of working and saving lives after lives.
   
   In several occasions, I totally got annoyed by some doctor friends which put me off because of their playing hard-to-get attitude - JUAL MAHAL max, applicable especially to guy doctors, I'm sorry.
   
   Not long ago, I got to know to know Dr. K and I wasn't at all that interested in him since I thought he isn't my type but after a while, I thought he isn't so bad, hence, I've decided to get to know him - it's always better to have an extra friend rather than enemy, right?
   
   I did my part, I greeted him and stuffs but the thing was, he was being all COLD and IGNORANT and on top of all, PLAYING HARD-TO-GET! I mean, when another person is trying to be friend with you, don't shun him or her off with your coldness even though you'd like a sexy, sultry, tall, beautiful, dark and handsome friend!
   
   
3. Doctors are good at making you mad.
   
   I was telling you about Dr. L and Dr. K, I was damn mad that it could blardy kill me! Yes, in several incidences some more! I don't know if I'm allergic to them but then again, yeah, I hate people like that!
   
   If any of you wants to make your BP higher, date a doctor!
   
   
4. Doctors love to judge others.
   
   Just because they think they are perfect, they shouldn't even judge others with the same expectation like how people judge them! Not everyone is as near perfect as them. If everyone gets to become a doctor in this world, I guess, by then, nobody wants to marry a doctor already.
   
   
5. Doctors are heartless.
   
   Yes, that is the truth from my own experience. Doctors are trained to break out bad news in all possible polite manners. Sometimes, you wouldn't even see the expression on their faces when they tell you something.
   
   If they tend to hurt you with their words, they won't feel it because to them, those are the daily things that they should do.
   
   

There, my top 5 reasons of why I have a love-hate relationship with doctors. No, I don't hate them, so, if you're a doctor and feels like I'm talking about you, then, that's just too bad but if you know you are not that kinda doctor that I'm referring to, why bother?

Maybe it's high time for me to change my lifetime goal of marrying a doctor.