I'll be right by your side...

I had a dream.

All of us were on a holiday trip to a really nice place - a place where flowers were blossoming and leaves were greening. The scenery was just so, so beautiful.

I was walking along a path when all of a sudden a stranger approached me, pointed a knife at me and said, "I'm going to kidnap you!"

All of a sudden, he came into the picture and told her to-be kidnapper, "Let her go and kidnap me instead."

Before he went off, he held my hands and apologized, "I never meant to hurt you, I just wanted the best for you."

Then, I woke up.

I felt super emotional when I was up. I thought of everything that we've been through together and the phrase, love conquers all, kept on whirling on my mind. Perhaps for minority it is true but for me, I will never put my trust so easily in all these lovey-dovey stuffs ever again.

Love is indeed a miracle for somebody but for another person, it might be a total bullshit and so sad to tell you that my feeling falls in that bullshit category right now.

As much as I wanted to believe in love, I found it really tough now. I remember once, when I went to SFX with friends for the Sunset Mass, there was a couple, an elderly couple. The lady couldn't move around much. When the priest said, "May the peace of the Lord be with you all," the elderly man turned to his wife, hugged and kissed her on the cheeks.

I turned to one of my friends and said, "OMG, did you see that?" She was smiling at me and said, "There will be a day when you'll be in the same situation."

I really envied them and wondered if I will be in the old lady's situation. If you want to know, things are different now from the past. A part of me somehow knows that I'll never be in her situation or maybe even relationship will never cross my path.

I'm never cut out for love perhaps.

Previously, the same situation happened to me once and I told myself if I am to meet this kinda person again in this lifetime, I'll never ever going to forgive him - I am going to hate him. Unfortunately for him, he is the person after the previous guy, so, I really don't know how am I going dig out the courage to ever forgive or maybe forget him.

All those lovey-dovey SMSes made me wonder if he really did care and loved me before things went downhill for us - perhaps, he was only toying with my feeling... perhaps, he was not. Whatever it is, it doesn't really matter any longer.

I think I'll go through another three quarter of my life or maybe less, concentrating in studies, work and my family. Love is totally out of the way for the time being because I've stopped believing in it for the time being.

Maybe, the day when I can finally talk to him again will be the day I've managed to put everything behind and start to believe in love for once again.

Miracle

Guys, I need motivation - not because of relationship or studies but I'm facing financial crisis right at this point of time. I really don't know where should I dig the extra cash from. These few months will be really terrible I'd say...

Let's just put aside the financial crisis thingy first because I'd like to share a self-composed so-called inspirational story. Serious. I got 18 out of 20 for this fiece of written work.

*claps hands*

I'm so damn proud of myself sometimes.

*angkat bakul*

Anyway, here goes...

"She is dying."

My mother, being a strong-willed woman all her life, finally burst into tears when the doctors told her that the life of my youngest sister was withering away.

"You should let her go. There’s nothing we can do."

All my father could do was to comfort and calm my mother’s frantic soul.

Years of growing up together, nothing could beat the excruciating pain I went through at that moment, not even the moment when we beat each other up because of a Barbie Doll. The pain was so intense every time my sister would give me a tug on my sleeve and told me, "Sis, it’s not painful at all. Please tell mummy and daddy not to cry."

I could only cry silently when I saw my sister going through chemotherapies and endless medication. My heart was in plunging pain seeing my beloved sister going through so much pain and yet, I could do nothing to ease the pain she went through every single day.

"Why? Why did You give her to me when You want to take her away?"

It was then, my family began to turn to God. My mother cried in front of the cross almost every night until she fell asleep, holding the bible and cross in her arms.

Then, came a particular night, my mother woke me up in the middle of the while, held my hands and said, "Your sister will be healed, she will be healed."

My mother told us that she was praying when she saw a light, shining her way, and she could make out a sacred figure, telling her, "Go and spread the good news of the Lord. Your daughter will be healed."

Over the period of few months, I could see my sister recovering.

The doctors could not find any cancerous cell within her. They were amazed at my sister’s recovery to this very day – a patient whom they thought could never make it to this day, survived with God’s mercy and love.

Emotionally, my mother inspired me not to give up easily while spiritually, I believed God exists and He is looking after each and everyone of us. I went back to church after that with so much hope and joy that finally my very precious sister came back to me - a healthy and jovial girl again.

For my sister, she shared this story with many others. She told me, "I live because God loves me so much that He didn't take me away from you guys and I will spread the good news of the Lord."

Now that the story ended... I can grumble already... How am I going to settle my financial crisis? I'm really so freaking worried these days...

Sometimes, I really regret to choose this path - perhaps, if I chose another path, that is to step into the working world, even though there will still be financial crisis, at least it isn't that terrible like what I'm facing now...

But yeah, I still believe in what Alice told me last time, "If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it."

Lord, have mercy on me!

Ribena Lemon

Gah... I want Ribena now - who can bring me Ribena, I'll marry you not if you're a guy and I'll treat you an Iced Tall Caramel Macchiato is you're a girl since I cannot marry you.

Anyway, whatever it is... this look is called Ribena Lemon. I don't know why I named it Ribena Lemon but the inspiration just came from there - I mean the colour combination. Whatever it is, I've summarized everything into ONE picture - oh, I love Picasa!

If you're wondering why I only did ONE of my eyes, I was trying out another look on my other eye and I kinda forgotten to take picture of the other eye. Sotong me...

Yes, I used my 88 colour palette because it is a very useful palette.

I recreated Michelle Phan's Hippie Princess look using the same palette as well. The colour is a little different and perhaps it could be due of my lousy blending. Err... could it be the super kua zhang false eyelashes? Whatever it is, it doesn't matter. We all learn from mistakes.


If you like the colour combination, check out Michelle's channel.

Anyway, need to sign off now - have a meet-up with friends in 2 hours' time at SS2. Update tonight - have a story to tell!

Sweet Mocha

Since I'm on the verge or fainting due to so many things to study, I might as well post up my very first tutorial before I really faint.

The colour palette I used was from Cyber Colors by Sasa. It's palette number 2 with the name Sweet Mocha, hence, this tutorial would be called Sweet Mocha since my blog is all about sweet desserts and I'm the sweetest person on Earth.

Before I start, lemme just show you how the RM65.90 palette looks like...

Yeah, I know, damn expensive but I got it for RM55.90 at that time because I was entitled for discount if any of us bought 3 items and above.

Anyway, let's just proceed with the steps, shall we?

First step is to use base colour and that's colour number 1 in the palette. Dush, brush and do whatever it takes to put the colour onto your eyelids following the shape of your eyeballs.

Second step is to apply colour number 2 onto the outer half of your lids. The colour might looks weird because blending but trust me, everything is going to be fine after blending!

Third step is to apply darker tone, colour number 4 onto the area just above colour 1 and 2. Use your blending brush, take colour number 3 and blend all the colours well. If colour number 4 is insufficient, apply another coat.

Since I like to put shimmer on my tear ducts, I applied shimmer from Cosway, RM4.90 - cheap, I know, you don't need to remind me.

Finish up your look with eyeliner and mascara. If you prefer false lashes like I do, remember to curl your lashes before you put on the false lashes.

The end product should look something like this...

I know, my complexion sucks, yes, it sucks because I didn't apply concealer or foundation or blusher or anything. Who cares, right?

With this, I end my tutorial here, have fun trying!

Bencana alam dalam bilik saya...

The weather has been so goddamn hot for the past few days that the Rain God finally shone His grace upon us and gave us rain last night.

When I said RAIN, it doesn't mean just rain alone.

Bencana alam dalam bilik saya, tahu?

The Rain God was kind enough to let the rain being assisted by thunder and lightning. Yes, that was really good but, but, but... some disasters happened in my room due to the heavy downpour last night.

I went to sleep as early as 1.30a.m. only to be waken up by the sound of glasses cracking two hours later. It was pretty creepy. I remember waking up at 3.25a.m. when I heard noises and my brother told me to close the window because the wind was too strong that all my mid-open windows were blown to wide open!

Then, he told me not to shut all windows and to leave one just in case the room would be stuffy. I listened to him, went and shut one window before telling him to put his laptop away since it was placed besides the window just in case it kena the rain.

Then...

The big thing...

Yes, the big, hairy thing came...

Haha...

Not so creepy but it me with my big mouth...

Not even up to one minute I've told him that, kaboooom... my vanity mirror that was place at the other side of the window fell down and it missed my brother's laptop by just an inch with the glasses thrown onto my bed!

MCB... lucky I wasn't hurt or else I'll be cursing the Rain God!

My brother had his eyes opened and stared at me for a moment and said, "You and your big mouth!"

Alright, my fault but I didn't expect it to happen so soon, alright? I could still laugh it off and told Bernard that my brother's laptop is super invincible. Just a month ago, the screen cracked due to heat and it was just taken home yesterday morning. At night, something else happened that ALMOST cracked his screen again! Hahaha...

So, at 3.30 in the morning, three of us including Bernard had to wake up to clear the glasses and I cut my index finger! Stupid bad luck!

Live Traffic

My blog is almost done!

Hurray!

But today, I'm not here to talk about my blog - Imma going to talk about Live Traffic.

If you guys are not sure what a Live Traffic is, please click here.

It's an useful tool actually. In fact, I've came to know it last year through Simon's blog but I was quite hesitant on the idea of using it until I subscribed to it not long ago - yay, now, I can visit everyone's blog worldwide!

That special someone...

The first person that caught my attention was Bernard because he was the FIRST guy I saw in the class and so far, the tallest guy I know! Then again, I was completely mesmerized by his sexy voice. Okay, enough of Bernard, this entry is NOT about him and Bernard, don't be perasan, okay?

When we met about in Miss Yoges' Phonetics and Phonology class, I finally got to know this young lady whom then talked, laughed and being lame as much as she does now.

Her name is... Meiwa...

Our friendship didn't click right on the spot. I was merely a stranger to her in the very beginning and she was a stranger to me too, I'd say. Most probably the situation happened because I had my own circle of friends back then. After which I had a misunderstanding with my very own circle of friends, it was then, I got to know Mei Wa, Princess and also PX better - they gave endless support in whatever I do and I remember Meiwa telling me to be positive about everything because she is one hell of a positive person!

This girl... How should I put you into words, Aminah, how?

Well, she's SUPER funny - so funny that you'll never feel bored being with her! Yeah, she can be cheated quite easily as long as you're a pro, like me. Haha... Go and ask her how many times have she being cheated by a big liar like me? She'll tell you the right answer!

The best part was that there was once Princess, PX, Aminah and I went to KFC for dinner. We were all talking about Aminah's 3 elder brothers who happened to still be single then. We were asking how did her parents come up with such wonderful names for her brothers and why her name is Meiwa.

She told us something like, "My second brother was born in the year of dragon, so, that explains why his chinese name has the character dragon in it."



Being a lame person, I came up with a statement that made everyone choked on their food, "Then, why didn't your parents name you as Mei Niu since you're born in the year of cow?"

If you don't know, "niu" means cow in Mandarin.

For your information, Mei Niu means Pretty Cow.

Anyway, I don't want this whole entry to be filled with craps... instead, let's just get down to business, shall we?

For the girl who had in mind that 3 slices of cakes from Starbucks is not sufficient for her 24th birthday, so, she gave us and those poor cakes a menacing look...

For the girl who eats a lot more than you can ever, ever imagine because she's so freaking thin can be blown away by stronger wind...


For the girl who has always been so happy-go-lucky despite of neverending worries and problems because being happy is what it takes to stay young, according to her...


For the girl who always dresses like an auntie of 50 years old because Meiwa, honestly, your fashion sense sucks big time... haha... please don't kill me, I'm still your cute, pretty and sexy mummy, so, you must respect me... hehe...


For the girl whose face often got chopped off in pictures because the cameras just don't love her enough to make her look prettier in the pictures...

~ Picture removed to protect anonymity ~

For the girl who is NUTS about Red Box and singing that once, she suggested we should go to Red Box whenever we have the money and time because, seriously, this girl loves to sing and is thinking of becoming the next superstar!

For the girl who is one of my partners in crime especially when it comes to studying because her results are all damn good that all of us needed to salute her... She can swallow the whole book and during exam, wrote 99.9% of EXACT answers!


For the girl who has always been our victim when it comes to bullying cases... she's just too fun to be let go because seriously, she'll tag along with you in the fun...


For the girl who bailed out on us during the UTAR 2007 Ball Night... Meiwa, I still remember that you've promised that we'd all go together but you ended up not going - you bailed out on us... how could you? You know, the pictures are all incomplete without you...

~ Pictures removed to protect anonymity ~

For the girl who always has in mind that nasi campur a.k.a. mixed rice a.k.a. chap fan is the best lunch and dinner because they're simply the cheapest...

So, Meiwa... Now you know how much you're appreciated, right? I remember every little thing that we've went through together and this includes every little thing that you've told me.

And it is because of a friend like you that my life is so colourful - thank you for always being around and yeah, being one of my bestest of the bestest Kakak Aminah!

Lastly, I think Aminah is the MOST splendid name you've came up for yourself, not bad, not bad. By the way, we should meet up with Ribena soon. He's staying nearby my place. Haha...
Anyway, Meiwa, happy 24th birthday and I love you so very much!

Fuck you, Sakae Sushi!

I'm still angry after last night's entry, goddammit!

I thought things would be better since we went to Starbucks, Jaya One and also Sakae Sushi, 1 Utama to celebrate Aminah Too's birthday.

Aminah Too was so damn happy because it was her first time at Sakae Sushi even though Princess has been mentioning about the nice and fresh and also cheaper salmon sushi there since we got to know her years ago!

The fact was I was a little skeptical over the idea of going to Sakae Sushi at 1 Utama because during my last visit there 2 months ago, their service and food sucks big time!

Having working under F & B for quite some time, I know very well about what to expect especially from restaurants that require service charge. Even for Starbucks, when customers need not pay the service charge, we still need to do clean up!

Lemme just tell you what happened. We stepped into Sakae Sushi around 8.45p.m. and waited 5 minutes for the staff to show us our seats. Fine, no problem with that. Then, when we were seated, I realized our table was wet, so, I tried calling the staff to wipe the table - waited 5 minutes for ONE staff to respond but she said, "Wait a minute!"

Alright, I waited... another 5 minutes passed by, I called the second staff. AGAIN, he told me, "Wait a second."

Okay, label me as impatient, I don't care... I waited for another 5 fucking minutes and called the third staff. For the fucking third time, she told me to WAIT!!!

Fuck all of them!

I had to resort to call the manager to clean up the freaking table for me in the end!

After looking through the menu for quite some time, we were ready to order. I waved. Princess waved. Aminah-chan waved too. MCB, none of the staff entertained us! I was already grumbling and grumbling that I bet the chef heard all the taboo words I was using. After 10 minutes, a staff after telling us to wait came to us to take our orders.

So, 5 minutes later, the staff came back to us saying, "Sorry, Fried Maki sold out."

Then, she just went off like that!

Impudent staff!

She didn't even give us a chance to make second order!

Aminah-chan and I were getting a little irritated already until our temaki were served, we realized they gave us the wrong order! So, Princess told the chef to change just one order because I wanted Spicy Salmon Temaki but it ended up the chef too three of the orders away from us and we were given back two Tuna Temaki.

Where the hell did my Spicy Salmon Temaki go?!

It was only until few minutes later, when I was ready to burst out of anger that Princess told me to calm down and reminded the chef that he had make a mistake in taking away the Spicy Salmon Temaki.

To hell with your professionalism!

Alright, calm down, Angel, calm down!

Then, when our Miso Soup came, the staff ended up bringing us only ONE bowl when we ordered TWO bowls! I had to wait for another 5 minutes before telling the staff that we were short of one bowl. Not only that, we asked and asked for spoons for three fucking times but the stupid staff didn't even give us the spoons even though two of them said, "Okay, okay."

Princess and I resorted to drink the soup directly from the bowl. I was feeling so unsatisfied with the service altogether!

It then, Aminah-chan decided to order Salmon Maki. First, she told a lady staff... We sat there, waiting patiently for Aminah's order - 5 minutes, 10 minutes. Fuck those people at Sakae Sushi! What the hell were they doing? Aminah reminded the staff for second time and we waited for another 5 more minutes before Princess decided to walk off since the service there stepped on our tails.

Fuck you, Sakae Sushi - for ruining my day and also my friend's birthday!

WTF?!

I hate DiGi, I really hate DiGi although I still subscribe to DiGi!

I thought DiGi provides the cheapest call rate but hell, no! DiGi lied to me!

My brother came home a while ago, asking, "How the heck could your phone bill reach RM150.88?"

I was dumb-founded because all of a sudden, my mind went blank and I couldn't think. How the hell did my phone bill go up from RM98 to RM150.88 this month?

In February, I really SMS-ed him kao kao and the total bill was around RM98 only despite the fact that he is using Maxis and one SMS costs 15 cents. MCB, DiGi wanna kill me, I think!

Most of the calls I've made were to mum and dad. We can talk for hours and talk like mad but it's kinda impossible for the bill to reach RM150.88 this month, right? Yeah, I did call BFF often but she's using DiGi as well!

Previously, when I signed up for DiGi postpaid, the person told me that if my monthly bill reaches RM120, every call after that would be free of charge. Yeah, being a cheapo I am, I subscribed right away. So, the very next month, when I've gotten the bill, I almost jumped out of my skin when my bill was RM132.

WTF!!!

It ended up that the stupid DiGi person was lying about the promotion because when I made a call to the customers' service, they told me that the promotion isn't valid any longer.

Fuck you, DiGi!

I'm very much depressed over the bill honestly and I'm thinking of going back to using prepaid to control my expenditure. From today onwards, no more calls or SMS-es unless they are necessary!

DiGi, you sucks big time!

Let's set aside the issue about DiGi for a while... I have so many complains today! I hate my typical, boring and monotonous life!

As soon as I woke up this morning, the only thing that came across my mind was food. Can you believe that I've been eating like mad since Monday and all the food I've eaten was so damn fattening can die?

Initially, I thought perhaps I could lose some weight during these 3 weeks of leave but heck, I ended up eating more than I could ever remember!

When I went to try on some of my previously bought clothes, especially my jeans, they cannot be buttoned any longer!

Fuck you, weight gain!

Then again, blame it on the stupid study week when all of us need to finish up our freaking Language and Gender assignment until wee hour of dawn! I've been staying up until 5a.m. these days just because my mind went into blank state and I've to sit there quietly to figure out what to write!

Fuck you, assignments!

There will come a day when I finally have to sit for my first paper next week and I'm damn NOT ready for it at all and the first paper is the toughest, "Varieties of English." OMFG... How am I going to answer all the three questions?

Rin just SMS-ed and emailed me regarding how Cass and her are going to answer the exam questions and I totally have NO idea on how I am going to do so!

Fuck you, exams!

Also, I've been feeling so freaking depressed because of my UGLY short hair! I can't seem to pull off any make-up or hairdo well these days because of my short hair and I despise my short hair and I totally regret listening to him, went ahead and chopped off my long hair!

Now, it keeps me thinking - probably he hates me because I look fugly with short hair, so, we broke up.

I miss my long, black hair so, so much... Please come back to mama... Mama promise I'll never let you out of my sight again...

I swear, if my hair grows longer this time, I'm NEVER EVER going to chop it off ever again. If there's someone who goes to you and say, "Short hair suits you better - you look younger."

Reply by showing him or her your middle finger and say, "Fuck off and try cutting your long hair short and tell me how it feels!"

Remember NOT to trust him or her saying short hair suits you better. It's bullshit, I tell you!

Fuck you, short hair!

At the end of the day, I realize even if I grumble and grumble about these things, it wouldn't help much.

So, I tarik balik every 'fuck' word I've used.

Thus, I rest my case. Good night, peeps!

To do or not to do?

Since a lot of you know how much of a bimbo I am and how much I love, love, love make-up and stuffs, I'm wondering if I should start a Beauty Blog or not - sharing what I know about make-up, hair, skin care and stuffs.

But honestly, I don't know much about skin care because a lot of pimples and acnes are mushrooming on my forehead these days and I hate them so, so much!

Darn... If only I've the time to multitask... I think if I'm ever going to start on a beauty blog, I'll tend to either neglect this blog or maybe through time, I'll neglect the beauty blog.

At the end of the day, still, I think I shall stick to one blog only. Blame it on my spilt personality. Oh, I hate myself sometimes!

Meanwhile, let's just divert you from the topic of starting a beauty blog to some swatches I did for the 88 colour palette and also pigments I've gotten earlier from Enpointe.



The colours are gorgeous for your information. I'd say if you're the pigment type of person, go for pigments from Sweetscents. I've gotten Amethyst, Iced Lilac and also Smokey Mauve Pearl and believe me, the colours really stand out!

I'll just end here for now - need to resume doing my freaking assignment!

Theobroma Chocolate Lounge @ 1 Utama

Chocolates are often the best cure for broken hearts and honestly, dark chocolates and white chocolates are my personal favourites. I even had a lot of chocolate drinks ever since I first joined Starbucks few months ago and now, all of a sudden, I got so tired of chocolate drinks from Starbucks.

So, my brother took all of us to Theobroma Chocolate Lounge at 1 Utama last week. The lounge has always appear nice, classy and expensive to us, so, we never even thought of going there before. Since we had our breakfast just an hour earlier, four of us resorted to two drinks and one piece of cake.

Pardon us for the lousy and digusting expression...

Our orders were...

~Dark Belgian Hot Chocolate ~

~ Snow White Frappe ~

~ Tiramisu ~

I forgot the price of the drinks and also cakes but altogether, the bill came close to RM54 in which I'd say, kind of a little exceeding reasonable because I think on the whole, Starbucks' Chocolate Drinks taste a lot better.

The Dark Belgian Hot Chocolate is so, so sweet can get diabetes and much, much sweeter than Starbucks'. As for the Snow White Frappe, kononnya is white chocolate but all I could taste was Nespray milk powder, that was all. The tiramisu sucks because I wasn't sure why. Starbucks' and Secret Recipe's tiramisus are a lot better and cheaper!

Anyway, I don't wanna comment a lot, if you're interested, check it out!