If there is a second chance...

If second chances do exist, it is a miracle. If second chances do not exist, do not blame the world for not giving it to you. The world is fair. You get what you've asked for.

Karma is the word.

When you've done something good, it'll come bouncing back to you but if you've done something bad, it'll be the other way round.

I believe in karma, that's why I'm feeling it now. I need a second chance but I don't think there will be a second chance for me because I don't think I deserve it especially from him.

Those that I've done in the past were supposed to be white lies but as time passed by, I realize that these white lies are going nowhere because I just can't seem to go on telling lies to him. I really feel so bad about it.

For all those years that I've known him, he has been nothing but tolerant, kind and considerate soul. He used to be there when I needed someone to talk to and he's still there today. He used to be the place I made my complains and he still is today.

He is there when my day is low or high. He is there to share with me his ups and downs in life. He is there to give me endless advices. He is there to share the lamest jokes with me. He is there just because I need him to...

At the times when he tells me about how hard his days have been, I wish I could just tell him, "Don't worry, tomorrow will be a better day."

I don't have the guts to say even that.

When he told me of the decision to leave Malaysia in October, I really feel so heavy-hearted that I wish I could reach out to him and say, "I am sorry..."

Oh God, I really regret for the lies that I've told in the past because of my immaturity. I really wish I could turn back time and put everything in right order because I appreciate our friendship a lot.

If there is a second chance...

I will tell him all the truth that I've been hiding...

I will tell him that I have no intentions to tell those lies...

I will let him know how much our friendship means to me...

I will let him know how valuable it is that our friendship is to me...

I will let him know I'd get the moon and stars in the sky for a friend like him...


If there is a second chance some day later...

I will tell the whole world how proud I am to have found a friendship in him...

I will make each and everyone knows that having him as a friend is a blessing in disguise...

If God is willing to give me a second chance...

I will do whatever it takes to turn back the time and put everything straight again because I truly and honestly cherish our friendship.

If there will be a second chance tomorrow...

I will tell him, "I am sorry."