The day it died on me...

Yes, it died out on me since two weeks ago...

My N80 finally died out on me even though I did take good care of it despite falling down three or four times since last year due to my carelessness. Okay, you can blame it on me - come, come.

Sob... I love me N80 so much that you can see it's basically scratch-less and gleaming new. How can it died out on me at this time?

Let me tell you what happened to it that have made me freaking mad for the past two weeks...

1. The screen went white when I slide it up...


2. The screen went white AGAIN when I slide it down...


3. The keypad somehow is not responding well.

4. Mute phone!

Yesterday, when I was trying to make a call to me brother, the phone refused to make the outgoing call no matter how hard I tried to press the 'call' button. Then, after which I've made the call, I couldn't hang up! Darn phone!

Mum, dad and me sister have been nagging that I haven't been answering calls these days. You see, the phone is mute sometimes but sometimes, it's perfectly fine! Stupid mute phone! It totally gets on my nerve when I need to make urgent calls, the phone seems to go against me!

Then, me brother was so annoyed at my stupid phone that he told me to get a new one instead of making my life miserable with the current one. You see, it's not because I don't want to get a new one, it's because I don't know which to get as I told myself I'm going to use my N80 because it's my lifelong beloved mobile.

Get my point?

What to do? I need to put it to rest soon after the parents come. Haha... in which, for me, it means good news since I'm going to get a new set of mobile. So, I've been doing some surveys online and came across few phones that I'd like to get my hands on...

1. Nokia 6500


Da-sao got a Nokia 6500 last week and I like it's sleek design honestly. Well, the picture quality is ain't that bad but still, the best thing about this model is that it's sleek and elegant! Da-sao and I both love slider phone but I think after this, I won't be getting any slider phone any longer.

The bad thing is that... an internet-freak like me should get to access to internet whenever I like provided wireless service is provided but 6500 doesn't offer WLAN - too bad but still, I like it and MIGHT consider on getting it if there's no other choice.

2. Nokia N82


I'd say N82 is actually quite a nice phone if it's not because of it's keypad - too small and narrow for my liking. Equipped with a 5MP camera and WLAN, it's one of the best phones that Nokia has. Me brother told me to go for this one too because he's using it now and very satisfied with it.

Well, yes, everything about N82 is good and the reason I keep on considering if I should get this piece is because I don't want to be using the same phone as me brother - I know I'm very particular when it comes to this but I'll still give it a good consideration if there's no other choices available.

3. Nokia N78


The thing that I don't like about N78 is also the keypad. Sigh... Why do the people at Nokia wanna make the keypad so like that? Small and narrow some more, just like N82... It comes with a 3.2MP camera which is like 0.2MP better than my current N80 in which I never really use the camera since I've got a camera of 8.1MP.

The keypad bothers me every much... But still, if you want to know, N78 is in my consideration list because of the specifications of this model.

4. Sony Ericsson G900


Okay, honestly, I'm not a BIG fan of Sony Ericsson because I used to have Z520i around 2 years ago and that darn phone died out on me in not more than 7 months! When I brought it to the service center, the repairman told me it was because the cable that connects the screen to the keypad was spoilt.

Fine, spoilt... How can it be spoilt when I didn't even pull the phone apart? By the way, Z520i is a fold phone. Now you know why I super don't like Sony Ericsson's phone and I went back to Nokia after using Samsung, Motorola, Siemens and Alcatel.

But G900 kinda made me changed mind. It supports WiFi and best of all, like my Sony Cybershot T2, it comes with touch-screen feature. Yes, I love touch-screen gadgets. A 5MP camera phone, just like N82 and I always think that the camera quality of Sony Ericsson is better than those of Nokia.

Yes, it's in my consideration list too.

5. Nokia N93i


My gawd!!! This piece of gadget is so fucking nice, I tell you! Damn, why is Nokia so darn smart when it comes to gadget like N93i? My gawd... I fell in love with it when I saw it the first time few days ago.

I never took interest in N series' model starting with the digit 9 but damn... N93i is so nice and elegant and high-class! You can turn the surface into a mirror look-alike thingy like this...


Then again, you can actually twist and fold this gadget. Damn nice! You can also turn N93i into laptop look-alike gadget...


Further more, since I've always wanted to get a video-camera, N93i offers it and best of all, you can actually hold this gadget as if you're holding your video-camera like this...


Some friends told me it's bulky and too big for girls but I don't mind having a bulky and big phone too. Well, N93i is equipped with 3.2MP camera - nothing special... but I just like the appearance of it and also the video recording stuffs in the gadget.

Okay, the end of the list... Before I end my entry - please DO NOT recommend N95 ever. I'm not interested in it at all. It looks clumsy.

Tell me which gadget I should get...

Friends and I

Note: The parents are coming in not more than 24 hours from now. Yippee, I'm so damn excited about it - and also the make-up and photography sessions are on Friday. I'm looking forward to it. Hip, hip, hooray!

It was indeed a tiring day. At the time I started out typing this entry, I've just taken my shower and got home from a long, long day... Yeah, the day itself felt so long since I haven't been spending time with my friends since lessons started.

Sob, sob...

I miss all of them actually... They've either been too occupied with work or even too busy doing their Masters that we couldn't meet up until yesterday morning.

Actually we were supposed to meet at 9 a.m. at PB Auditorium but due to some issues, I was late and got there around 11.30 a.m. Well, I know I'm always late but I've pretty good reason for being late.

Right, I didn't mention the purpose of going to PB Auditorium right? It was to collect my graduation gown. Hey, believe it or not, it's partly PINK! Haha... I love PINK. I was happy but unfortunately, Alice and Wendy didn't agree with me. They said YELLOW would definitely look better - after all, YELLOW is the royal colour.

When I got to the Internet Lab to fill up some surveys, the computers were fully occupied. MCB... I stood there and waited for half an hour. Stupid-laa, I tell you... The Internet Lab has sooooo many computers but only like 15 to 20 computers were switched on for us - more than 1000 students! Imagine if I got there around 2p.m. or so... I'd be so dead from queuing up.



It took me like 15 minutes or so to fill up the surveys and printed them out to collect my graduation gown in PB Auditorium. The process was not to say speedy but well... sorta okay. At least I didn't need to wait long to get my gown and mortar board.

~ Zebra Alice and I ~

There we were - Orange Alice, Zebra Alice, YT, Wendy and I, sitting at the corner of the room, waiting for Aminah Too... Yes, Aminah Too was late because according to her, the KTM broke down in the middle of nowhere and she was stuck inside it...

You can see from the pictures below - our faces while waiting for Aminah Too...

~ YT and Orange Alice were bored and asked where Aminah Too was ~

Wendy was keeping an eye on the door for Aminah Too since she was more than just being late... So, we chatted a bit before the situation below took place...

~ Orange Alice got more than bored waiting for Aminah Too ~

YT, being a camera-person as she always is, said, "Let's do something else rather than waiting for Aminah Too..."

Thus...

~ Kick Aminah Too ~

Eventually, they got bored and I got bored too, so, I kept away my camera and we continued chatting and chatting and chatting - while waiting for Aminah Too...

At last, Aminah Too arrived and we hastily kicked her butt asked her to go get her graduation gown and mortar board because we needed to rush to The Curve after that. It was lucky that Aminah Too was fast or else, we'd strangle kick her. Okay, that was a joke... We still sayang our Indonesian maid, Aminah Too.

So, our next destination - Red Box at The Curve!

We were late for half an hour due to some stupid traffic jam that got my blood boiling because it totally wasted my petrol! Then, the person at the reception counter told us that they won't give us additional time because we were late and it wasn't their fault that we were late.

Okay, fair enough, so we didn't comment further. We hastily went into our designated room and started to choose the songs we wanted and in not more than a few minutes, the pages were full!



Power or not? Haha... When it comes to singing, all of us semangat betul, I tell you! We can go on and on and on until when one of us look like Zebra Alice from the picture below...

~ Zebra Alice looks so damn tired here ~

On the other hand, Aminah Too looks so damn energetic even though she has been screaming and singing and rapping for like 3 hours or so... Darn her energy level...

~ Introducing Aminah Too and Orange Alice ~

As for me... Haha... damn semangat also... I felt like I was dominating the microphone most of the time because for most of those songs, I held on dearly to the microphone as if I was clinging on for dear life even though I didn't know some of the songs.

~ Me, looking so fugly in the picture taken by Wendy ~

I discovered a fact today... Orange Alice is a camwhore just like Zebra Alice and us. Muahaha... Take a look at the pictures below and you'll know why...



Now, I wonder if all Alice-s in the world are camwhores or not. Haha... So, when you combine Orange Alice with Zebra Alice, this is the result...

~ The Duo Trouble ~

Don't you just love the Alice-s? I mean, look, they're soooooo damn cute. Zebra Alice can smile until her eyes were lost in that pretty face while Orange Alice is as always, beautiful beyond descriptions.

Finally... a proper group picture...



Okay, that'd be all for today. So damn tired and sleepy that my eyes almost shut while doing this entry.

Chance

Alice, AM, SY and I were attending a function where there was a performance from the drama club. My attention was fully on the performance because the guys on the stage were cute. Soon, I realized Alice, AM and SY went missing.

Few moments later, I received a SMS from Alice, telling me that they went food-hunting at the nearby cafeteria. I replied her SMS by asking her why she never asked me along. Alice said it was because she knew my answer would be "I'm on diet" if she was to ask me, so, she skipped asking me this time around. She said she'd be back in an hour or so.

I sulked when I got her reply but since I didn't know the way to cafeteria, I decided to wait for them to come back.

Somehow, a force urged me to turn around to look at the entrance of the hall after I put back my mobile into my handbag. As I turned around, something got hold of my attention - a group of friends who entered the hall. Among the group of friends, someone was in the group - someone whom I used to adore...

Upon seeing him, our eyes met. I hastily turned away from him and pretended as if I never saw him. Unexpectedly, he approached me at my seat and asked if he could have the seat next to mine or not. I ignored him. He proceeded to sit beside me and tried to initiate conversations between us.

Him: How's life lately?
Me: None of your business.
Him: Working yet?
Me: You don't need to know.
Him: Why? I thought friends are supposed to care about each other, no?
Me: We're not friends but strangers.

I stood up and left the hall. I did not wish to talk to him. I was walking down the path leading to cafeteria because I wanted to catch up with Alice, AM and SY when I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around and saw him - he was following me. I heard his running footsteps behind me when my pace was fastened. As I was just preparing myself to run, he got ahead of me.

Him: Why are you running away from me?
Me: Why are you following me?
Him: We need to talk.
Me: We have nothing to talk about.
Him: I know you're still mad with me.
Me: No, I'm not.
Him: Then, why are you ignoring me all these times?
Me: Did I?
Him: Please give me a chance to explain everything at least.
Me: Why should I?
Him: Everybody deserves a chance to put things right.
Me: I don't wish to listen to anything you want to say. Goodbye.

He got hold of my left arm just before I could leave.

Him: You might not want to listen but I want to make explanation.
Me: Not in this lifetime!

I stepped on his feet and ran off.

As I was hastily running away, I bumped into Alice, AM and SY when I was halfway through making my way to the cafeteria. When they saw me huff-puffing, Alice was worried. She asked if there was anything wrong. I told her I met him... Alice smiled at me and another conversation was initiated between the four of us.

Alice: Why are you running away from him?
Me: What is the reason for me to stay?
SY: Maybe you should listen to what he wants to tell you.
AM: Yes, let him explain.
Me: I don't want to remind myself of the past.
Alice: I guess it'll do you no harm if you just listen to him.
SY: Don't you want to know what what was the reason behind the countless misunderstandings between you guys?
Me: I don't think I need to know. You know what I've been through to put the memories of us behind. I don't want to remind myself of those memories.
Alice: At least, give him a chance to talk things out.
Me: I've given him a lot of chances to put things right but he kept on hurting me.
AM: Are you sure you've given him a lot of chances? A year ago, you came to us, crying because something got in between your friendship but you never did give him a chance to explain.
SY: You never gave him chances to sort things out after so many misunderstandings took place.
AM: You said you're not mad at him any longer but did you give him a chance to put things right again?

Alice gave me a squeeze on my right shoulder.

Alice: Friendship is just like a treasure. You guys might not be able to be together as a couple but at least you know he's a friend you can always count on.
AM: Perhaps, all those talks about you, not being mad at him, are just your excuses to avoid getting hurt.
SY: Give him a chance to put things right. Listen to what he wants to say and then, decide if you should keep this friendship or not.

He appeared right in front of us after that. I turned to look at Alice with worries on my face. Alice gave me the most angelic smile ever and said, "Angel, 加油."

With that, three of them walked away from the scene, leaving him and I behind. He approached me with another smile carved on his face.

Me: Say whatever you want to say and leave.
Him: Thank you for giving me a chance to put things right again.
Me: 5 minutes.
Him: I appreciate our friendship a lot and I don't want anything to come in between.
Me: If you appreciate our friendship, you wouldn't even let those things happen! If you appreciate our friendship, you should have trusted me! If you appreciate our friendship, you shouldn't have done so many things that hurt me in so many ways!
Him: I'm sorry, okay? I admit, I was wrong at so many points of times but no one is perfect. There were times when I was mad at you for being so childish too.
Me: Me? Childish? I wonder what is the meaning of a friendship in your context. I'm childish alright but at the very least, I know I did a lot of things because of you!
Him: Can you stop pointing finger at me?
Me: Then, should I point finger at myself? Alright, it was my fault, my mistake and you should put the blame on me for being naive and childish! Goodbye, Mr. Perfect!

I ran into the darkness of the night only to realize that it was a dream - I woke up. It was a dream but it felt so real... so real that I could feel myself perspiring even when I was wide awake.

I thought over the dream for the next two days... maybe what Alice told me in my dream was right... maybe I didn't give him any chance to put things right again but how am I going to give him any chance when I don't even feel like seeing or talking to him?

A lot of things got in between our friendship that it deteriorates with passing day. If it is possible, I'd like to talk things out with him too but how? Whenever I thought of the past, it pains me. It reminds me of my struggle to forget him. Sometimes, it reminds me of all those he has done that I could never get the thoughts off my mind...

Once, he promised to pick me up but in the end, he couldn't make it and I was left stranded at the station alone at night. I was really mad at him at that time because he was the one who asked me to be there as he wanted to talk to me about something and he also promised that he would pick me up but in the end, he couldn't make it because he wanted to go for a game with his friends.


I was lucky that another friend of mine happened to have transport that night, so she picked me up instead. I was honestly furious... He didn't even call just to make sure I've gotten there safely - not even until the next morning.

At that time, I wished somebody would just kidnap or perhaps murder me, then, he'd feel guilty forever.


Label me as heartless as you like but you can't help feeling like I did when you were in the same situation as me - night, alone, stranded, station, girl - tell me how would you feel.

Thinking back, there were a lot of things I've done that totally upset him as well. I remember once I was really mad at him that I did use foul languages and perhaps even cursing him but I did that out of anger solely and I held nothing personal against him.

So many things have taken it's toil for the past few years and some of them were the sweetest memories ever...

I remember once when I was crying my heart out over an issue and he was there all along. He was there to wipe my tears, he was there to comfort me, he was there to hear my endless ramblings, he was there when I was sick, he was there when I needed help, he was there for all and for all. It was really sweet of him to offer warmth on a rainy and cold night when I was shivering.

He used to be the place where I seek comfort...

He used to be the place where I poured my feelings...

He used to be the place where I found warmth...

I really tried very hard to get over those memories that we've shared - as friends and nothing more than that. Sometimes, it freaks me out whenever he dropped by for just a hello... I couldn't find the courage to even talk to him just like I did in the past...

I guess people change with passing time...

Regarding the chance for him to put things right and the dream, I guess I just can't pluck enough courage to face him after so many things have happened and that both of us have a life of our own to lead now... Whenever I think of those times we've shared in the past, it always remind me of how I went through the time when I was trying to put the memories of us behind...

I don't want to go through the same phase in life - twice...


Thus, another chapter in my life closes...

Perhaps Wendy was right about a thing...

"One day, when you finally find yourself talking to him again, it will be the day that you've successfully put the past behind you."

Nirwana @ Bangsar

Lovin' curry?

Lovin' tosai?

Lovin' chapati?

Lovin' canai?

Yes, I'm lovin' them, baby!

For whole of my life, I think I'll be addicted to curry as much as you do. I grew up eating and cooking curry because believe it or not, my mum is hell of a good cook! She cooks terrific curry, rendang, masak merah and stuffs like that.

Now you know how my mum got hold of dad's heart and why dad is so addicted to her cookings up to this very day.

Thus, one day, me brother and I have decided to give it a try at Nirwana because my da sao a.k.a. sister-in-law going-to-be kept on recommending the curry, rendang and stuffs at Nirwana.

Just in case you have never heard of Nirwana before, it is situated at Bangsar. If you've been to Bangsar Village, you'll know that Nirwana is right opposite it. If I'm not mistaken, Nirwana is situated opposite Bangsar Village's COAST boutique door. Find the way on your own because I'm not a good tour guide.

Once you get to Nirwana, you'll be greeted with this...


Yes, no sharing of meals because you can keep on adding and adding and adding your share without limits, so, no sharing. Haha... I was laughing out silly at the notice because I told me brother that it looks stupid being hung up there and yet Wendy and I still shared our meals.


I went there two times courtesy of me brother and da sao. The first time I was there, I was totally fascinated by their banana leaf meal. Yes, rice served on banana leaves with three different dishes... like this...


The three different dishes are cucumber salad, cabbage with bitter gourd. There might be a number of people who dislike bitter gourd but let me tell you, their bitter gourd is really awesome! Yes, it's awesome. You should try it.

Besides the dishes served, you can order additional dishes like mutton curry, beef rendang, chicken or fish curry.

By the way, the bitter gourd is the dish in red.

For a person who dislikes and hates bitter gourd like me, I found that their bitter gourd is so good that you'll keep on eating non-stop. The secret is that they actually drained the bitterness in the bitter gourd and then, dip it in flour before deep-frying them.

Nice...

When I was there for the second time, I was really greedy. I kept on taking the bitter gourd that I ended up not finishing my rice and cucumber salad. Yes, I don't like cucumber and remember that!

Da sao was telling me not to waste my food and in the end, she was the one wasting her food because she didn't even finish her share.

~ Anonymous Wendy with the da sao who is so fluent in Mandarin ~

I was suffering throughout the process of finishing my food because I wasn't really hungry that day. I even had to dump the cucumber salad onto my brother's banana leaf because I really don't like cucumbers.

I'm not sure if it's belief or what that once you've finished your meal, you need to fold the banana leaf into two. It's what da sao told me... to fold the banana leaf and leave it like this...


The banana leaf meals are really nice that if you so happen to be pass by Bangsar Village for lunch or dinner, give it a try. It's affordable I'd say.

Eternity...

"Where are we going, grandma?"

"Somewhere that grandma and grandpa have always wanted to show you."

"Where is it?"

"A place where you can find eternal happiness with the person you love."

I was clutching grandma's hands while grandpa was driving. I could feel myself perspired profusely. I was excited, very excited. Once in a while, I would glance over at grandma only to realize she was smiling at me all the times.

"Grandma, where is the place that you can find eternal happiness?"

Instead of answering my question, grandma pointed out of the car, "Can you see those hills amidst of the white clouds up there?"

I looked out of the car to search for the hills that grandma was talking about. As my eyes set on the hills amidst of the white clouds, at once, I felt serene. Grandpa, who was driving, stopped the car at the roadside and said, "It is a place of eternal happiness."

"Can I go there with you guys?"

Grandpa giggled and said, "Why would you want to go there with us when you know your parents and siblings will be worried if they find you missing?"

"We can't bring you there to stay with us but we can bring you there to look around," grandma told me.

The closer we were to the peak of the hills, the more people I could see walking around the place. They seemed friendly and they greeted us when we went out of grandpa's car. I could see people a joyous circus-look-alike scene. Everybody seemed happy at the place.

"Grandma, grandpa, let's go play!"

I had a great time running around with grandma and grandpa at the place. But time passed by too hastily when I was with them. Grandma and grandpa sat on a bench with me sandwiched in between them.

"It's time for you to go home, my dear."

"I don't want to go home yet!"

"You wouldn't want to be stuck here, right?" grandpa asked me.

"But I want to be with you guys! I want to be in a place where I can find eternal happiness too, with you guys!"

I was beginning to cry when grandma handed over her white handkerchief, "You silly girl... Grandma and grandpa will forever be with you no matter where you are."

"But I want to see you guys again!"

"When the time comes, we'll be reunited for once again."

Throughout the years of growing up with my grandparents by my side, I never felt lonely. Grandma and grandpa were there with me all the times despite of in health or sickness. They never gave up on me even though there were times when I angered them with my childish thoughts and behaviours.

Their departures to a place where they could find eternity marked the beginning of a world that they could no longer be with me physically. I cried and wept when both of them left me in 2002 and 2004. Though they have left me physically, I believe that they will always be there for me spiritually and emotionally.

I came to understand when grandma said 'a place where you can find eternity with the one you love' actually means she has found grandpa and they've reunited.

I know very well that I might not be able to see them again but some where in my mind, I know, one day, we will be reunited for once again when the time comes. It comforts me to know that they've finally found eternity and peace in the place where they are at now.

Vivo @ The Curve, Mutiara Damansara

One of the fast food restaurants in Malaysia.

Yeah.

Me love fast food but me hate the guiltiness after eating it.

Okay, end of nonsense. Let me begin with the story of three cute-kiut girls who went food-hunting at The Curve, Mutiara Damansara.

Those three cute-kiut girls are non others than YT, Wendy and I. Haha... Yes, YT introduced us to Vivo, which was situated at the corridor of The Curve which leads to Cineleisure. Find the location out on your own. I'm not quite sure of it.



The restaurant doesn't look anywhere tempting if you happen to pass by it because I didn't even notice it was already there since the first time I went to The Curve like three years ago!

So, three of us took our seats and we were given the menus. We flipped through the pages on the menus and I'd say the price isn't very, very cheap because even McDonald's or KFC is definately cheaper and their value meals come with Pepsi or so. But still, I'd say it's in the affordable range if you don't go for the expensive drinks.



The good thing about Vivo is that besides serving the typical burgers, fries and fried chickens, they have other food like lasagna, fish and chips and even burgers customized by yourself!!! I chose Parmesan and Oregano bread with BBQ Chicken and it was served with fries at only RM8.90 exclusive of tax.



From the picture above, it looks nice, right? Believe me, it tasted nice too and I even divided it into two meals - lunch and dinner.



Forgive the picture above because it was grossly taken by Wendy's insufficient photography skills. Haha... That was a joke. It might look gross but it really tasted nice, believe me.

As for Wendy and YW, both of them ordered Lasagna and Fish n' Chips respectively...



I wouldn't say the Fish n' Chips is special because it's yet another typical Fish n' Chips you can see anywhere in town. Go for their Lasagna instead - Salmon Lasagna. Yes, it was nice and recommended for those of you who love Salmon and cheese, just like Wendy.

Their Lasagna and Fish n' Chips were served together with mushroom soups and garlic breads...



Sorry, no picture of mushroom soups because I think you're able to imagine how it looks like on your own, right? Smart you.

So, the final verdict of the day is...

If there is a second chance...

If second chances do exist, it is a miracle. If second chances do not exist, do not blame the world for not giving it to you. The world is fair. You get what you've asked for.

Karma is the word.

When you've done something good, it'll come bouncing back to you but if you've done something bad, it'll be the other way round.

I believe in karma, that's why I'm feeling it now. I need a second chance but I don't think there will be a second chance for me because I don't think I deserve it especially from him.

Those that I've done in the past were supposed to be white lies but as time passed by, I realize that these white lies are going nowhere because I just can't seem to go on telling lies to him. I really feel so bad about it.

For all those years that I've known him, he has been nothing but tolerant, kind and considerate soul. He used to be there when I needed someone to talk to and he's still there today. He used to be the place I made my complains and he still is today.

He is there when my day is low or high. He is there to share with me his ups and downs in life. He is there to give me endless advices. He is there to share the lamest jokes with me. He is there just because I need him to...

At the times when he tells me about how hard his days have been, I wish I could just tell him, "Don't worry, tomorrow will be a better day."

I don't have the guts to say even that.

When he told me of the decision to leave Malaysia in October, I really feel so heavy-hearted that I wish I could reach out to him and say, "I am sorry..."

Oh God, I really regret for the lies that I've told in the past because of my immaturity. I really wish I could turn back time and put everything in right order because I appreciate our friendship a lot.

If there is a second chance...

I will tell him all the truth that I've been hiding...

I will tell him that I have no intentions to tell those lies...

I will let him know how much our friendship means to me...

I will let him know how valuable it is that our friendship is to me...

I will let him know I'd get the moon and stars in the sky for a friend like him...


If there is a second chance some day later...

I will tell the whole world how proud I am to have found a friendship in him...

I will make each and everyone knows that having him as a friend is a blessing in disguise...

If God is willing to give me a second chance...

I will do whatever it takes to turn back the time and put everything straight again because I truly and honestly cherish our friendship.

If there will be a second chance tomorrow...

I will tell him, "I am sorry."